An Okay cook

When I saw Sy sitting on its own, I became so excited. However, my husband said he has been doing that since couple of weeks ago. Hmmm ... have I missed something? I've been with them all the time when I'm at home. How would I have missed something like that? Anyway, Sy seems to be excited too. He uses his new ability whenever he can. He also can stand by clinging to furniture and me. A is the most excited. Sure, she can't wait for the brother to really walk so that she can have a real fight with him. Sometimes, I saw her sitting on Sy's back, imagining him as a horse. Lucky, most of the time, I catch her on time. Otherwise, boleh patah belakang Sy.
One morning last week, I almost fainted when I couldn't find Sy, who was supposed to be sleeping in our bed. I had gone checking on A in another room and fallen asleep for about 20 minutes beside her. Sy had actually fallen from the bed and was stuck in between the bed and the small drawer near the bed, head down. On top of him was a pillow, making him invisible. He was crying at the top of his lung but his voice was muffled. I thank Allah for making me a light sleeper. I don't know what could have happened if I hadn't heard him.
A has been eating quite well lately. Maybe because she sees me cook and sort of understand the process. But there're days she refuses to eat. When I ask her, kenapa tak makan? Tak sedap ke? She says, yes, tak sedap. I know I'm not a very good cook. I suppose I'm just Okay. hehehe.
When Am cooks, she usually eats a lot. Many times she would say, sedap, sedap. Ceh ...
Lately, my tempers have been bad and bad. I shout at A and Sy many times in a day. I have yet to get used to managing them both on my own during the day. That's the problem when one works odd hours. I found out juggling between office work and cooking, bathing them and doing other things in the house is very tiring and challenging. Two kids are already a handful. How are we going to manage four kids. Am like to have four. And I like more kids too. But, can I manage?