Fanaticism or 'kepohism'

What's wrong with Malaysians these days? Why we're so kepoh about other people's business? Since when others'jodoh becomes our business? I like and dislike Siti Nurhaliza's issues. I admire the way she gained her success, but it irks me when her fans and non-fans become so fanatic they think they can tell her who she should be marrying. I'm critical over Mawi's shot to stardom and his engagement break-up, but why should we bother to point fingers or even think about who's right or wrong, which led to the break-up. I'm neutral about Erra and Yusry, but pity them when their marriage didn't work. But heck, I don't care who was to be blamed in their marriage. For God's sake, it's their business to whom they want to get married to or to break up or divorce from. Why we so busy-body?

Indonesia menangis lagi

The tsunami hit Indonesia again, claiming 300 lives so far. Hundreds others are still missing. And Indonesia menangis lagi. Going through the pictures, I can not help but wonder why disasters seem to always be happening on Indonesia's land, one after another. Why God let them happen to Indonesians? How're they going to go forward if disasters hit them like any other day? They don't even have time to re-build their homes before the next disaster comes. Maybe Indonesians are super-strong, hardened by the tests of life. But an outsider like me can not help but still feel pity for those who lost their loved ones, especially the children. I can't dream how difficult their life is, let alone to share. But I can feel and see the sadness, the suffering. Every time I look at it, I feel hopeless and angry with myself as I can't do anything to lessen their sufferings. If only I was rich, I would have a lot to donate. Often, when I go back, their tears and sadness, the innocent and peaceful look on the dead children, the confused faces of the survived ones, their frantic look while searching for their loved ones, the disappointment upon finding they were dead and many other emotional elements would remain in my head until some times. Maybe the only thing which made me feel better was to be nice to my Indonesian neighbours. But then they are no more there, having moved out couple of months ago.
I pray God gives them more strength to continue their life and ends their suffering soon.

Mohd Nazri's birthday

July 2 is Nazri birthday. Happy birthday brother and may u continue RIP there. Almost 17 years passing by, I love and miss you still and sometimes wonder how you would look like if you were still with us. Would you get married? had kids? Would you be fat or thin 'melidi' like the last time we 'saw' u? Now, I'm feeling sad ............. Hope I'll pray for u more often.

Genting and us ...

So we had our family gathering in Genting ... The weather was colder than the last time I went, and the fun was also less due to my aging :) and my having to put up with two noisy kids. What with the accident happened to my poor father in-laws' car, which decided to hit the wall of Genting's police station (what a strategic spot it chose) while being u-turned. Mother in-laws left shaking and feeling worried till the end of the holiday and sister in-laws husband probably felt guilty till the end as he drove the car. Maybe, it was easy to forget that being left unscatched (Thank Allah) was also a reason to cheer.
A for sure enjoyed the trip as she got to see her cousins though she was either too small to befriend the bigger cousins and or too big to befriend the smaller ones. Sy was a bit frigthened by the new environment and cold weather, so he became clinging as usual. Am was busy going up and down Genting hills as the 'victimised' car and the vehicle it hit needed to be settled out. Myself was left waiting most of the time. But I have 'grown' my patience and tolerance in double since I got married to Am and his family and had kids. So, overall, the event was okay. I gave it three bintangs.

Sources told me that brother's wife is pregnant. Good news eh. So I called him and yes, my mother will have more grandkids next year, insyaallah. I'm happy too.

Today, we send my second cousin from Trg to UPM Serdang. How being in a campus brings back my memory as a varsity student. It was like walking down the memory lane. I was happier and freer, and definitely much slimmer with many friends. Now, where're they? Or maybe to be fair, where are ME?

Dealova ... hmmm ... nice

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu, Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang mungkin bisa kau rindu, Kerana langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu, Oh kerana hati telah letih, Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yang selalu bisa kau sentuh, Aku ingin kau tau bahawa aku selalu memujamu, Tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati Oh bayangmu seakan-akan... Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu, Kau seperti udara yang kuhela, Kau selalu ada Oh.. Hanya dirimu yang bisa membuatku tenang Tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang Dan sepi.. Dan sepi... Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu, Kau seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada, Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku yang memanggil rinduku padamu, Kau seperti udara yang kuhela kau selalu ada, Selalu ada... Kau selalu ada.. Selalu ada.. Kau selalu ada...

Hmmm, I'm maybe a bit ketinggalan. But I really love the song ... beautiful melody. And even more beautiful when sung by Siti Nurhaliza last night. Until last night, I didn't even know the title. But the melody has remained in my head since the first time I heard it.